Nellisms & Life

Today, right now I should be at church!!!! I am very very very frustrated. But even if I was at church I think I would be more of a distraction than a help. I was fine this morning, but right toward the end of practice I got a real sharp pain in the left side of my abdomen. If any of you have ever had a ovarian cyst burst or rupture you know what I’m talking about.  This was probably the worst that I’ve ever experienced. I can’t tell you the details. But I’m aggravated about it because I really felt like something awesome was going to happen in church today. The chorale has been learning I Need You by Tye Tribbett. It is an incredible song!!! I felt the Holy Ghost all through out practice and I just knew that it was going to really bless the church!!! And now I’m at home because of all this PAIN!!!! I’ve been laying down singing this song to myself! Even though I can’t be at church today the message of that song is still the same!

I can’t breathe without you, and I won’t last with you, I NEED YOU, I NEED YOU!! And I won’t last without, I know that I would fail alone! I NEED YOU, I NEED YOU!!!

Even sitting here at home, in pain and wanting to be at church. I still feel the Holy Ghost! Maybe it’t not fair, but life never is. I don’t know, maybe there’s a lesson in all this somewhere and I just don’t see it.  But I have no one else here with me today, except God. I know I can lean on Him. I actually thank my father for having the foresight to send me home, even though I wanted to stay, for all the wrong reasons too!! I wanted to stay because the choir is supposed to sing that song and I sing the solo part on it. But how selfish am I to think that God can’t move if we don’t sing that exact song?!?!  There are many willing vessels to be used! Not just one! Not just me!! Yes, God does at times use me to minister in song, and there’s nothing as good as that feeling!  I still know that church is going to be awesome! I’ve felt it all day! If God has something for the church today it will get said, get sung, get across in one way or another.

Even though I’m upset about my current situation, I know God is here with me. And He has helped me so much through out this whole ordeal. From the very beginning! I’ve never walked a day without Him being there. And it helps to keep a positive attitude. God has already delivered me from the chains of depression and anxiety, so I know that whether it be through prayer or through modern medicine that this too will get taken care of. And if not, then it’s a part of life that I have to deal with. At least until I have children!!! After children – it’s all gone! yay!!  God is a constant source of strength.  No matter what God is Good! All the time, God is GOOD!

Seriously I think I would be good at it !!!! Cutting open bodies, speaking to the dead. Or be one of those people that usher people into the funeral home etc… Anyways… its just a thought! I know how to act in those kind of circumstances. And its a business that will NEVER go out of business!!!

On Wednesday Matthew and I cleaned the house, like spring cleaned!!!  We washed sooooo many clothes and FOLDED so many clothes!!!  I don’t mind washing clothes but I do not like folding them!!! But now my house looks good and smells good and I’m ready to entertain. Who wants to come over ????  I’m a really good cook =) Speaking of cooking I came across a AWESOME recipe for a pizza that I can’t wait to try!!! White bean, basil and sun dried tomato pizza!!!! I found it on Sparkpeople.com.  I love to get recipes from that sight because the majority of them are healthy, and you can always “tweak” it a little.

• 1/2 cup sun-dried tomatoes, chopped
• 1 15 oz. can great northern or navy beans, drained
• 2 cloves garlic, peeled and chopped
• 1/4 teaspoon dried oregano
• 1 10 oz. thin crust pre-made pizza crust
• 1 cup shredded fresh basil leaves
• 1/2 cup shredded, reduced fat mozzarella cheese

Preheat oven to 425� F.  p.s. if you want to know how I’ll do it a little different just ask!

2. Place sun-dried tomatoes in a small bowl and pour boiling water over them enough to just cover and let stand for 10 minutes to soften them. Drain well, then chop into thin strips.

3. Place beans, garlic and oregano in a food processor. Cover and blend until smooth.

4. Spread bean paste over surface of pizza crust.

5. Sprinkle with sun-dried tomatoes, basil and cheese.

6. Place pizza on an ungreased cookie sheet or pizza pan and bake for about 10 minutes or until cheese is melted.

We have 3 more days on our 15 day fast and I’m already looking forward to trying this!! This has been a very good time for me spiritually. At first I tried to do just water and no food. THAT didn’t work so well!!!! I only lasted 6 days. LOL!!! Then Matthew and I decided to try something that would fit us and our lifestyles. I have been praying for our city and for the upcoming bootcamp. Which has been the first and foremost GOAL of this fasting and prayer. But in the middle of all this God has really REALLY been dealing with me about some things in my personal life. I’m so glad I took the time and made the effort for this Boot Camp! I truly believe great things are going to happen. Things in my own personal life are already starting to happen, whether its a result of this time period or not I don’t really know for sure… But I feel like it is!!

Sometimes it amazes me how I will be so busy throughout my day, going everywhere and doing everything and even the “work of God” but I don’t actually take the time to TALK to Him!!!! I give everything I have to looking for a job, one that will stick and I can grow in and be at. Even drive all the way to San Jose just on a hope that something will open up, but then I get home and I’m too tired to pray, but I’ll do the dishes or wash laundry, but I can’t take TEN MINUTES to REALLY talk to God. Not to ask Him for anything, not to ask for blessings or anything.. just to talk. During all this I think that God has really pressed upon me that I need to give my first and my best to Him and everything else will fall into place!!! Instead of working and trying so hard to make everything happen my way and then baaaaarely remembering God is there to help me, but it’s like an afterthought!! it seems so silly that we do this in our tithe, giving Him the first of our increase but not in our everyday lives.. At least for me this has been a real eye opener! Somewhere along the way I think I just forgot to include God. And of course your always going to feel closer to the Lord during a fast..but now I really do feel like He is here!

Today I reconnected with an old friend. She probably has been on of my dearest friends since I was about 12. We grew apart over the last several years but today I got a return email from her!!! yay!!! Its always good to keep your friends. I have a LOT of acquaintances but a handful of truly dear friends. I’ve learned THE HARD WAY (of course) that even if your wrong or have been wrong its better to apologize and lose your pride for a moment than to let someone you really care about forget about you!!! So she tells me that she’s in TEXARKANA TX !!!!!!  Know I really really really really really want to go for a visit!! Like my desire to go see all my old “peoples’ wasn’t strong enough already!!! Know she is there!! So if anyone wants to donate (thank you) to the “Danelles trip to Texas” fund. People… let the LORD guide you!! hehe.  I’ve already got my “eating itinerary” set up. I”ll go to Dixie Diner, Bryces Cafe, WHATABURGER!!! OOOh and if I stay with Aundi she has to make no bake cookies!!! MMMM!! I know that the city is probably very differnt, and the church is different but I want to see everyone!!!! Even for just a few days. I could be with 2 of my best friends at one time, how cool is that !

Now I have to tell you I have a new favorite joke !!! I have always LOVED corny jokes, like one liners, etc.. Of course how can I not when my father loves elephant jokes!!! He always told the SAME STUPID jokes at our Christmas Banquet every year!!! LOL! Maybe thats where I get it from.

What do you call a fish with no eyes?        A FSH!!!!

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!!!!!  Lol I KNOW ITS STUPID!!! Thats why I like it!! HAH! But when I told it to my mom she didn’t get it!! ROFL! Trying to explain it made it more funny! Because you can’t really explain it!! HA!

thats all today !! Hope you got my joke. Hope I made you laugh, and think, and hungry.

Hello hello to all my fellow bloggers !!! OMW its been forever since I have blogged!!! I missed you all! HUGS and KISSES to all!!! Well a lot has happened since I last wrote on here! Waaaay too much to blog about. So heres a little bit of everything!

I am so sick of all the politics!! I of course like Sarah Palin and that old guy. hehe

Matthew and i had a date the other night. I always like it when it’s just the two of us. He makes me laugh!! We tried a new place called Roux. Louisiana style cajun, or at least they try… It was good but some weirdo set off the fire alarm like 3 times and it was very annoying!!! Very very very very very very veryveryvery annoying ! and they have crawfish etouffe but its all BOILED! I need part boiled and part fried !! I MISS PAPPADEAUXS!!! And then we walked around for a little bit and OHMYWORD!!! DO people not have mirrors in there houses ??!?! Do they not have any friends?? I promise I saw the most horrible fashion ever that night!!! I’m all for looking good and maybe a little but of funkiness… but not every article of clothing!!! way way way overdone!! Too tight, too short, and too low with 6 inch heels is NOT ATTRACTIVE!!!  And girls wonder why there not treated right.. puuuulease..

Today we went to the cemetary with Matthews Grams and family. Thursday was Papa’s Birthday. And they just now got the headstone. So we all went and it was sweet. We actually stood around laughing and carrying on. I think he was somehow there. He would have liked being there today, and somehow I think maybe he was. It was sad but everyone was in good spirits! Mom (cassandra) put a DEER on the headstone!! haha then she accidently broke the head off, but I told her it was ok because now it really looked like he shot it !! Then we all went back to Roux. We wanted to go to Maggionos but it was a FOUR HOUR wait !!!!!!!!

I have been excercising a LOT lately!! Due to all the medicine and long recoveries and steroids that I have been on in the past 2 years I have gained 40 POUNDS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!  OH ITS HORRIBLE !!!  And I used to be just SO upset about it and cry and cry and cry !! But now that all the meds are OUT of my system I am feeling more and mroe like my old self! ( watch out world)…. Theres not point in crying about what is, so I’ve decided to change it! And I know that I can do it ! I know, I know women aren’t supposed to talk about there weight… but hey something has got to be done!! And as long as i’m doing the talkin’ its ok,  you on the other hand better not !! HAH!!

I’m very excited about tomorrows service. we are having a all ladies service !! I am leading the worship which I know I can do. Lord knows I’ve heard my dad teach everyone else how to do it!! “sing the song”  “dont preach, just sing” ” your off key sing tenor” AHAHAHAHA all my life… but I’m a tad bit nervous. I know that God will have His way though. My mother in law is the MC of the service. I have a all ladies praise team tomorrow,  tenors and all!!!  Usherettes and even women preachers !!! I know it will be “cute” but I also think that the Holyghost wil be very strong. Maybe even more than the men because we have long hair!!! hahaha Thats what I said and I was serious but obviously others thought it was funny!! But what I meant was because of how our long hair is our glory …. Does that make sense to anyone else ?? lol

Speaking of the WRONG THING TO SAY !!!  We had the Freeway quartet come to sing for us. The Allards came with them and afterwards mom had them over to dinner. Well toward the end of the meal they all got to talking about how different pastoring is now and especially in CA than in other places. Bro. Allard was telling us of a trans gendered person that came to him about marriage or something like that. How do you deal with something like that ?? Do you let them get married or should they live a life of celabicy ?? etc… But all  I could think about was this poor guy THE REAL GUY that thought for all these years that him and his wife couldn’t have kids !!!! And so thats what popped out of my mouth!  ” Well no wonder WE can’t have kids’!!!! And I MEANT THAT COUPLE !! NOT ME AND MATT!!!!  But <BIG SIGH>> Thats not how it came out!!! I was mortified and my poor husband was soooo red!!! Well you guys dont have to worry neither of us are transgendered!!!!!!!!  But it was a very funny couple of moments !!!  I hope all that made sense. Anyone who really knows me can kinda figure out how all that went down !! Still AUNT KARLA  thats not as bad as your husband!!

Ok well i’ll try to post more often. We lost our internet for a little bit but I think we got it back now! so until next time !